[ Widdle Eli so cute!! He's so tempted to pinch your pink cheeks. ]
Yeah, it'd be a literal pain in the neck if you had to refill every day. [ He'll let you play tough for now, bro. Since they're in front of Hank and all. ] Did you learn anything useful yet?
[ Sorry you're kind of a third wheel in this conversation suddenly, Hank. He absently reaches down to run his fingers through his husband's hair. ]
Considering how much I drank from you, I would imagine it'll be a week until I need to feed again. Of course, without a living sire, it's hard to say if I'll require more or less.
[ Get ready to hear all about what he learned, too. Hank's cool with sitting on the sidelines, he knows family time is important (and he'd rather not talk about his dreams, if that should come up.) ]
It's not completely unprecedented for a vampire to kill their own sire. They tend to go rather... berserk when they do. Which I haven't, so I think we can count that as a win. However once the blood rage and all that passes, the once-fledgling becomes much, much more powerful than the average vampire due to being untethered from any coven or community. Since they are still vulnerable while they are uncontrollable, other vampire clans are known to band together to destroy them when this happens.
[ He clears his throat and looks away. Is he actually feeling a little guilty about the fact that more vampires could be coming for him? No way. ]
I would hope that won't happen, considering no one has any reason to suspect that I've been turned, but I imagine it might be a concern.
[ They both bite now. Think of the brotherly rough housing. ]
I'd hope so. I can only make more blood so fast.
[ He leans against Hank's shoulder as he listens, very interested. A lot of what he says makes some kind of sense and lines up with previous assumptions about this vampire shit. ]
Well, I'd think we'd be able to sense an 'uncontrollable vampire' in our midst if that was the case. Like I said, I think your connection to us is what made you... un-thrallable. [ Yes that's a word now.
But aw, Eli. He sits back up and reaches over to take his hand. ]
Hey, none of this is your fault. Whatever happens, we'll deal with it. We're all stronger together. [ He smiles. ] And of course you start out the strongest you can be. That's just how you are.
[ They gonna wreck and hiss and growl at each other. At least now they can't really hurt one another. ]
That's likely the case. Unfortunately all the information I found on vampires and werewolves was about how they're enemies. It's likely not a stretch to call our situation one-of-a-kind.
[ Which is always nice when they're trailblazing. And it's always nice to get a calming touch from his brother, even if he won't admit it. ]
I never said I was blaming myself. [ He was, though. ] Though it does suit me, doesn't it? [ He grins. ] At least I can pull my weight as more than just the pack's sugar daddy.
[ Now they can really have big brotherly brawls with minimal damage, huzzah. ]
Yeah, that sounds like us. [ He snorts. ] Do everything differently 'cause we don't have anyone telling us otherwise. Maybe we can set a positive example for everyone else.
[ He squeezes Eli's hand. He doesn't say it, but Gavin can feel it. Not that you could hide anything from him before, bro. Now it's extra hard. ]
It's pretty fitting. I know you'll have this shit all figured out in a week anyway. [ But then... ugh. He makes a face. ] Please never say that again. But it's good to know you can defend yourself now so I don't have to worry.
[ At last, an outlet for all that energy that doesn't involve sex with Hank. (Applies to both of them, really.) ]
Better to make our own rules, isn't that right?
[ Yeah okay the psychic bond means he literally can't hide anything but that means he doesn't have to say how much he appreciates him so they're both winners here. Elijah smirks. ]
Of course, you "never" worried. I'm sure that's true.
[ Even Hank snorts. Elijah's tone softens momentarily. ]
[ He's not bringing it up because he does still respect your privacy and whatever your version of 'dignity' is, bro. He's a good baby twin like that. ]
Nope, never. Never lost a wink of sleep over you. [ But oh, Eli... Gavin's expression softens as well. ]
You never would have, no matter what had happened. [ Still... the hardest thing was the knowledge that Eli would be weak to the passage of time. At least now... he feels a little selfish. But his heart has lost that ache. ] But I'm glad neither of us are going anywhere for a real long time.
[ Better to make things yourself than follow what others thought was right. Please, you can't create sentient life without the right attitude. ]
You've never been a good liar, Ezra.
[ That makes one of them. He'd definitely have blabbed if he'd seen anything juicy. ]
It crossed my mind, you know. [ He was thinking about it constantly in other words. ] Werewolves only have life expectancy because of pack in-fighting. There's nothing really stopping you from living a thousand years.
[ He squeezes Eli's hand again. Gavin knows the way he talks now, of course, can always read between the lines of the things he says. ]
Yeah. It'd suck to live a thousand years without your smarmy face around. [ It's probably... not entirely healthy that neither of them can fathom existence without the other. But well, they're a werewolf and vampire wombo combo now. Not exactly typical human experience anymore.
Babcia had said some same soul twins go insane with codependency. At least they aren't doing... that. It could be worse. A lot worse. ("Don't look into your great-great-great-great-great aunt and uncle, boys. We disowned them for a reason." Yikes.) ]
[ He smiles. Yeah, he knows that wasn't a compliment. And yet he's still sitting on the edge of their bed so, you know. If you're trying to get rid of him you'll have to try harder than that. ]
Oh? Did I finally get you to admit you'd miss me?
[ Yeah, no, they both know it's not just about that. But it's a matter of a soul not being able to exist when it's incomplete. The two of them may not be matching parts anymore, but with their differences, they still fit together just as well.
Maybe it's almost a good thing their parents forced them to be so competitive as children. At least it gave them room to be their own people. (Of course only Eli would think this... he's got favorite child privilege.) ]
[ Oh he could say far worse if he wanted to get you to leave. Ezra's always here to bust your chops, Eli.
He huffs and dramatically rolls his eyes, throwing a hand up. ]
I guess. It's like I love you or something, you obnoxious pain in the ass. [ And then he grins and reaches over, tugging Eli along so they're both flopping on Hank. Sorry husband, it's time for a proper pack cuddle pile. Try not to melt, Eli.
It worked out for the best. He won't give their parents any credit for it, since he doubts it was at all intentional, but well. At least they know where each other begins and ends. ]
[ Gosh, it's almost like they're brothers or something.
Perish the thought. [ He's blushing. Wow. He blames your blood, Ezra. ] I love you too, you brainless dog.
[ Oh but he says that with a smile and soon enough he's being pulled back onto Hank and that's nice, it's so good and calming to be surrounded by his brother and his mate and his alpha. This is definitely all Ezra's blood's fault. He closes his eyes and sighs. Maybe he's a little more Ezra than usual but that's not such a bad thing. Their parents may have fucked them up, but they picked up the pieces pretty well.
Hank just shakes his head and doesn't say anything. He can tell they probably need the cuddles. Sometimes an alpha's job is to cuddle his pack, apparently. ]
[ Eli you're so cute when you blush. Gavin snickers. ]
Dog, yes. Brainless, hardly.
[ It's nice to be able to feel his brother relax though. When was the last time he well and truly relaxed? They both curl up on either side of Hank, Gavin nuzzling close. He purrs a little, a full chested vibration, so very happy. ]
[ Elijah snuggles closer, letting himself relax and enjoy this. If Ezra is alright with it -- if Ezra is starting it, then it must be alright, right? Hank lets it happen too. He pulls them both closer, feeling them both relax. They both feel like his mate as far as his instincts are concerned, but he can kinda jive with it when they're all tucked together like this.
Maybe Hank can relax too. Or maybe Eli can be a little shit. ]
You lose cuddling privileges for being a smartass, brother. [ Gavin says it, sightly muffled against Hank's skin. Let him purr!! He's very happy!! ] You should give it a try before you knock it.
[ He responds, snotty but quick. He wants cuddles, dammit! Don't make him say it out loud. Hank just laughs, swatting Eli on the back. He's relaxed, ok. ]
[ He'll figure it out, he just needs a minute to stop thinking so hard. It's pretty difficult when you're Elijah Kamski, but after enough time, he manages it. He's purring. Very slightly. It's quiet and rumbly and Hank may have actually fallen back to sleep because he has two purring brothers on him.
Goodnight, feel free to talk. Eli's actually not sure he's felt this happy in a while? Which is weird since he's a vampire now but y'know. ]
[ Oh no, that's so cute. You're so cute bro, when you finally let your walls down. Gavin just smiles to himself for a moment. When he notices Hank's fallen asleep he lifts his head up and gently presses a soft little smooch to his cheekbone. Rest up, hubby.
He lays his head back down and looks over at Eli, gray eyes wide and curious. ]
I saw a lot in my dreams, y'know. Can I ask you something?
[ This is why he doesn't let his walls down around anyone (except Chloe,) no one must know he's secretly soft!! Hank smiles in his sleep and snuffles. Eli's half-dozing, but he's awake enough to stir and turn his head.
It's no surprise he saw something -- Elijah saw things too. ]
[ Evidently, this pack thing has its disadvantages. ]
Was I... what?
[ That's...... that questions gives him some mixed reactions, obviously. On one hand, she's dead. On the other, she's... well. ]
She was my mentor. [ But also Ezra can probably feel all the conflict there. And the embarrassment. ] She inspired me. And I may have had a... a crush, maybe but. Love is... no, that's not. That's not the word I would use.
[ Wow, he really didn't expect this reaction. He wasn't asking him to embarrass him, for once. He definitely feels all of his confusion too, that awkward twist of something in his chest. ]
Hey, hey, it's fine. I'm not judging you. [ He reaches over to put a hand on his upper arm, soothing him. ] I just... dreamed about her a lot. Felt all— [ He puts a hand on his chest. ] —about her.
[ He doesn't say 'it's how I felt about Hank at first' but, well. It was. ]
[ Well, at least Ezra's support is nice. He can believe isn't judging him.
At least if he also felt it, maybe Elijah doesn't have to put his feelings into words so much. You'd think a genius like him would have a little more control, but he's being honest and that's... honestly very hard for him. Ezra understands. ]
I just... It was completely one-sided. I wanted to impress her. And she was so vital to me.
[ He closes his eyes, taking a breath. It's hard for him -- he knows Gavin got his wish with Hank but Elijah was never going to actually attempt to be in a relationship with Amanda. ]
[ He doesn't have to say anything, Gavin getting the waves of his feelings... it hurts a little. It hurts to know it was an entirely unrequited love. He doesn't doubt Amanda cared for him, but it was more like a son...
It hurts in a way something hurts when you don't look after it properly. ]
I'm sorry, Eli. [ He leans over Hank and pulls him into a one armed hug. ] I wouldn't have asked if I'd known.
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Yeah, it'd be a literal pain in the neck if you had to refill every day. [ He'll let you play tough for now, bro. Since they're in front of Hank and all. ] Did you learn anything useful yet?
[ Sorry you're kind of a third wheel in this conversation suddenly, Hank. He absently reaches down to run his fingers through his husband's hair. ]
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Considering how much I drank from you, I would imagine it'll be a week until I need to feed again. Of course, without a living sire, it's hard to say if I'll require more or less.
[ Get ready to hear all about what he learned, too. Hank's cool with sitting on the sidelines, he knows family time is important (and he'd rather not talk about his dreams, if that should come up.) ]
It's not completely unprecedented for a vampire to kill their own sire. They tend to go rather... berserk when they do. Which I haven't, so I think we can count that as a win. However once the blood rage and all that passes, the once-fledgling becomes much, much more powerful than the average vampire due to being untethered from any coven or community. Since they are still vulnerable while they are uncontrollable, other vampire clans are known to band together to destroy them when this happens.
[ He clears his throat and looks away. Is he actually feeling a little guilty about the fact that more vampires could be coming for him? No way. ]
I would hope that won't happen, considering no one has any reason to suspect that I've been turned, but I imagine it might be a concern.
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I'd hope so. I can only make more blood so fast.
[ He leans against Hank's shoulder as he listens, very interested. A lot of what he says makes some kind of sense and lines up with previous assumptions about this vampire shit. ]
Well, I'd think we'd be able to sense an 'uncontrollable vampire' in our midst if that was the case. Like I said, I think your connection to us is what made you... un-thrallable. [ Yes that's a word now.
But aw, Eli. He sits back up and reaches over to take his hand. ]
Hey, none of this is your fault. Whatever happens, we'll deal with it. We're all stronger together. [ He smiles. ] And of course you start out the strongest you can be. That's just how you are.
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That's likely the case. Unfortunately all the information I found on vampires and werewolves was about how they're enemies. It's likely not a stretch to call our situation one-of-a-kind.
[ Which is always nice when they're trailblazing. And it's always nice to get a calming touch from his brother, even if he won't admit it. ]
I never said I was blaming myself. [ He was, though. ] Though it does suit me, doesn't it? [ He grins. ] At least I can pull my weight as more than just the pack's sugar daddy.
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Yeah, that sounds like us. [ He snorts. ] Do everything differently 'cause we don't have anyone telling us otherwise. Maybe we can set a positive example for everyone else.
[ He squeezes Eli's hand. He doesn't say it, but Gavin can feel it. Not that you could hide anything from him before, bro. Now it's extra hard. ]
It's pretty fitting. I know you'll have this shit all figured out in a week anyway. [ But then... ugh. He makes a face. ] Please never say that again. But it's good to know you can defend yourself now so I don't have to worry.
[ Pause. ] Not that I worried. You weenie.
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Better to make our own rules, isn't that right?
[ Yeah okay the psychic bond means he literally can't hide anything but that means he doesn't have to say how much he appreciates him so they're both winners here. Elijah smirks. ]
Of course, you "never" worried. I'm sure that's true.
[ Even Hank snorts. Elijah's tone softens momentarily. ]
But now I won't have to leave you behind.
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We always do anyway, right?
[ He's not bringing it up because he does still respect your privacy and whatever your version of 'dignity' is, bro. He's a good baby twin like that. ]
Nope, never. Never lost a wink of sleep over you. [ But oh, Eli... Gavin's expression softens as well. ]
You never would have, no matter what had happened. [ Still... the hardest thing was the knowledge that Eli would be weak to the passage of time. At least now... he feels a little selfish. But his heart has lost that ache. ] But I'm glad neither of us are going anywhere for a real long time.
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[ Better to make things yourself than follow what others thought was right. Please, you can't create sentient life without the right attitude. ]
You've never been a good liar, Ezra.
[ That makes one of them. He'd definitely have blabbed if he'd seen anything juicy. ]
It crossed my mind, you know. [ He was thinking about it constantly in other words. ] Werewolves only have life expectancy because of pack in-fighting. There's nothing really stopping you from living a thousand years.
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[ He squeezes Eli's hand again. Gavin knows the way he talks now, of course, can always read between the lines of the things he says. ]
Yeah. It'd suck to live a thousand years without your smarmy face around. [ It's probably... not entirely healthy that neither of them can fathom existence without the other. But well, they're a werewolf and vampire wombo combo now. Not exactly typical human experience anymore.
Babcia had said some same soul twins go insane with codependency. At least they aren't doing... that. It could be worse. A lot worse. ("Don't look into your great-great-great-great-great aunt and uncle, boys. We disowned them for a reason." Yikes.) ]
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Oh? Did I finally get you to admit you'd miss me?
[ Yeah, no, they both know it's not just about that. But it's a matter of a soul not being able to exist when it's incomplete. The two of them may not be matching parts anymore, but with their differences, they still fit together just as well.
Maybe it's almost a good thing their parents forced them to be so competitive as children. At least it gave them room to be their own people. (Of course only Eli would think this... he's got favorite child privilege.) ]
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He huffs and dramatically rolls his eyes, throwing a hand up. ]
I guess. It's like I love you or something, you obnoxious pain in the ass. [ And then he grins and reaches over, tugging Eli along so they're both flopping on Hank. Sorry husband, it's time for a proper pack cuddle pile. Try not to melt, Eli.
It worked out for the best. He won't give their parents any credit for it, since he doubts it was at all intentional, but well. At least they know where each other begins and ends. ]
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Perish the thought. [ He's blushing. Wow. He blames your blood, Ezra. ] I love you too, you brainless dog.
[ Oh but he says that with a smile and soon enough he's being pulled back onto Hank and that's nice, it's so good and calming to be surrounded by his brother and his mate and his alpha. This is definitely all Ezra's blood's fault. He closes his eyes and sighs. Maybe he's a little more Ezra than usual but that's not such a bad thing. Their parents may have fucked them up, but they picked up the pieces pretty well.
Hank just shakes his head and doesn't say anything. He can tell they probably need the cuddles. Sometimes an alpha's job is to cuddle his pack, apparently. ]
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Dog, yes. Brainless, hardly.
[ It's nice to be able to feel his brother relax though. When was the last time he well and truly relaxed? They both curl up on either side of Hank, Gavin nuzzling close. He purrs a little, a full chested vibration, so very happy. ]
Mine. Both mine.
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Maybe Hank can relax too. Or maybe Eli can be a little shit. ]
Oh my god, you can purr.
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[ He responds, snotty but quick. He wants cuddles, dammit! Don't make him say it out loud. Hank just laughs, swatting Eli on the back. He's relaxed, ok. ]
Please, purr to your heart's content.
[ He doesn't know how to purr... ]
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[ And he does so, though it's a little softer. C'mon bro, you're part of him, in his head, you can figure it out.
Oh, he remembers what he dreamed about... hm. He has some things to ask him when they're alone. ]
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Goodnight, feel free to talk. Eli's actually not sure he's felt this happy in a while? Which is weird since he's a vampire now but y'know. ]
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He lays his head back down and looks over at Eli, gray eyes wide and curious. ]
I saw a lot in my dreams, y'know. Can I ask you something?
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It's no surprise he saw something -- Elijah saw things too. ]
Sure. What did you see?
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Gavin hums and looks at him. No point in beating around the bush anymore, when you can literally get inside your twin's head. ]
Were you... in love with Amanda?
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Was I... what?
[ That's...... that questions gives him some mixed reactions, obviously. On one hand, she's dead. On the other, she's... well. ]
She was my mentor. [ But also Ezra can probably feel all the conflict there. And the embarrassment. ] She inspired me. And I may have had a... a crush, maybe but. Love is... no, that's not. That's not the word I would use.
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Hey, hey, it's fine. I'm not judging you. [ He reaches over to put a hand on his upper arm, soothing him. ] I just... dreamed about her a lot. Felt all— [ He puts a hand on his chest. ] —about her.
[ He doesn't say 'it's how I felt about Hank at first' but, well. It was. ]
It's... okay if you were, y'know.
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At least if he also felt it, maybe Elijah doesn't have to put his feelings into words so much. You'd think a genius like him would have a little more control, but he's being honest and that's... honestly very hard for him. Ezra understands. ]
I just... It was completely one-sided. I wanted to impress her. And she was so vital to me.
[ He closes his eyes, taking a breath. It's hard for him -- he knows Gavin got his wish with Hank but Elijah was never going to actually attempt to be in a relationship with Amanda. ]
I don't think I realized until she was gone.
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It hurts in a way something hurts when you don't look after it properly. ]
I'm sorry, Eli. [ He leans over Hank and pulls him into a one armed hug. ] I wouldn't have asked if I'd known.
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