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[ Eli you're so cute when you blush. Gavin snickers. ]

Dog, yes. Brainless, hardly.

[ It's nice to be able to feel his brother relax though. When was the last time he well and truly relaxed? They both curl up on either side of Hank, Gavin nuzzling close. He purrs a little, a full chested vibration, so very happy. ]

Mine. Both mine.

[ Elijah snuggles closer, letting himself relax and enjoy this. If Ezra is alright with it -- if Ezra is starting it, then it must be alright, right? Hank lets it happen too. He pulls them both closer, feeling them both relax. They both feel like his mate as far as his instincts are concerned, but he can kinda jive with it when they're all tucked together like this.

Maybe Hank can relax too. Or maybe Eli can be a little shit. ]

Oh my god, you can purr.

You lose cuddling privileges for being a smartass, brother. [ Gavin says it, sightly muffled against Hank's skin. Let him purr!! He's very happy!! ] You should give it a try before you knock it.

I'll shut up.

[ He responds, snotty but quick. He wants cuddles, dammit! Don't make him say it out loud. Hank just laughs, swatting Eli on the back. He's relaxed, ok. ]

Please, purr to your heart's content.

[ He doesn't know how to purr... ]

Damn right I will.

[ And he does so, though it's a little softer. C'mon bro, you're part of him, in his head, you can figure it out.

Oh, he remembers what he dreamed about... hm. He has some things to ask him when they're alone. ]

[ He'll figure it out, he just needs a minute to stop thinking so hard. It's pretty difficult when you're Elijah Kamski, but after enough time, he manages it. He's purring. Very slightly. It's quiet and rumbly and Hank may have actually fallen back to sleep because he has two purring brothers on him.

Goodnight, feel free to talk. Eli's actually not sure he's felt this happy in a while? Which is weird since he's a vampire now but y'know. ]

[ Oh no, that's so cute. You're so cute bro, when you finally let your walls down. Gavin just smiles to himself for a moment. When he notices Hank's fallen asleep he lifts his head up and gently presses a soft little smooch to his cheekbone. Rest up, hubby.

He lays his head back down and looks over at Eli, gray eyes wide and curious. ]

I saw a lot in my dreams, y'know. Can I ask you something?

[ This is why he doesn't let his walls down around anyone (except Chloe,) no one must know he's secretly soft!! Hank smiles in his sleep and snuffles. Eli's half-dozing, but he's awake enough to stir and turn his head.

It's no surprise he saw something -- Elijah saw things too. ]

Sure. What did you see?

[ You can't hide your softness from your pack, bro! It's futile!

Gavin hums and looks at him. No point in beating around the bush anymore, when you can literally get inside your twin's head. ]

Were you... in love with Amanda?

[ Evidently, this pack thing has its disadvantages. ]

Was I... what?

[ That's...... that questions gives him some mixed reactions, obviously. On one hand, she's dead. On the other, she's... well. ]

She was my mentor. [ But also Ezra can probably feel all the conflict there. And the embarrassment. ] She inspired me. And I may have had a... a crush, maybe but. Love is... no, that's not. That's not the word I would use.

[ Wow, he really didn't expect this reaction. He wasn't asking him to embarrass him, for once. He definitely feels all of his confusion too, that awkward twist of something in his chest. ]

Hey, hey, it's fine. I'm not judging you. [ He reaches over to put a hand on his upper arm, soothing him. ] I just... dreamed about her a lot. Felt all— [ He puts a hand on his chest. ] —about her.

[ He doesn't say 'it's how I felt about Hank at first' but, well. It was. ]

It's... okay if you were, y'know.

[ Well, at least Ezra's support is nice. He can believe isn't judging him.

At least if he also felt it, maybe Elijah doesn't have to put his feelings into words so much. You'd think a genius like him would have a little more control, but he's being honest and that's... honestly very hard for him. Ezra understands. ]

I just... It was completely one-sided. I wanted to impress her. And she was so vital to me.

[ He closes his eyes, taking a breath. It's hard for him -- he knows Gavin got his wish with Hank but Elijah was never going to actually attempt to be in a relationship with Amanda. ]

I don't think I realized until she was gone.

[ He doesn't have to say anything, Gavin getting the waves of his feelings... it hurts a little. It hurts to know it was an entirely unrequited love. He doesn't doubt Amanda cared for him, but it was more like a son...

It hurts in a way something hurts when you don't look after it properly. ]

I'm sorry, Eli. [ He leans over Hank and pulls him into a one armed hug. ] I wouldn't have asked if I'd known.

Don't worry. She was too good for me.

[ Elijah forces a smile, leaning into the hug. It's an old wound, but it'll always be there. Amanda was his everything, and then she was gone. He had to move on... or you know, base an AI on her. ]

She was.

[ He sort of gently pinches his cheek, an annoying little brother thing to distract him. ]

We both kinda got... lost in grief for a while there, didn't we?

We certainly did.

[ Elijah smirks, slapping his hand away and reaching over to mess with Gavin's hair. ]

I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I should have reached out.

[ Gavin snickers. He really needs to shave his undercut and his hair has been getting long... they're starting to look more alike than usual. ]

It's okay. I mean, I didn't try very hard either. I was so determined to be alone and angry to prove a point

[ Much as Eli's the type to dwell, he'll try to relax. Ezra's a lot better at letting go than he is. But then he's officially changed his name back and he's soft and married and happy so now Elijah gets to be the problem child, huh?

Yeah, ok, he's gonna dwell. ]

I certainly didn't help.

[ Time for you to deal with your own shit shit, Eli!! That's what you get being in a pack with them. Gonna be all emotionally healthy and shit whether you like it or not. It's hard to not work through things when you've literally got other people in your head. ]

Eli, we're almost forty. It's pointless to assign blame to a lot of shit we did when we were young, immature and still under the thumb of our folks own bullshit. We both fucked up but we're fixing it. [ He reaches over and pokes between his eyes. ] You may be a vampire but you're gonna get wrinkles between your eyes if you keep looking like that.

[ Elijah scoffs. He knows Ezra's right. It really is hard to hide things when your brother is in your head. ]

I don't have wrinkles, you know I take moisturizing very seriously.

Just don't start going full Elizabeth Báthory and you can take your moisturizing as seriously as you want.

[ Flashbacks to all the times he'd find younger Eli laying in bed with a face mask on, scaring the absolute shit out of him. ]

Now, are there any potentially embarrassing questions you wanna ask me? Y'know, to make it even.

[ Eli makes a face. Maybe his opinion will change one day, but for now -- blood is pretty gross. ]

You know I'm too squeamish to do that.

[ But he does take his appearance more seriously than most people so don't be surprised if he starts wearing foundation help with that dead pallor to his skin. ]

Well, since you're giving me the floor, I may as well. Would you and Hank ever consider a threesome?

[ He's full of shit, he's just going for the most embarrassing thing he can think of. ]

[ Eye roll. ] You're the first squeamish vampire, you weenie.

[ And then... Gavin turns bright red and tosses a pillow right at his face. ]

Oh fuck off! No! [ He's even more insistent because the instincts and pack dynamics are all fucky right now and the voice in his head is like "Sure because that's me!" and that's? No!! Ew!!

(Also that dream one of them had to have... no... ) ]

I'm the first of a lot of things.

[ He laughs though. He can feel that pull too, part of him was just wanting to know if Ezra was feeling it too. He should have guessed.

Also Hank grumbles something but manages to stay asleep. I guess he can tell they're both happy even if they're being stupid. ]

Fine, I rescind my question. How about... [ He pauses, tossing the pillow back to Gavin. ] Was it always so... easy for you? Being a werewolf. It seems like having Hank around really helped. You adjusted quickly. Or am I wrong?

[ It's a very insistent and intoxicating pull that he is stalwartly ignoring. He catches the pillow and curls up next to his husband again, snuffling close.

He hums a little at the genuine question. ]

No, it wasn't. Hank didn't really know anything either so we were both figuring it out. I was... [ He trails off. ] Scared of hurting people a lot. But we've got a handle on it now, I'd say.

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