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[donotlick]

aka: a psl for grumpy cops

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[coffeedipshit]

[ Oh no, that's so cute. You're so cute bro, when you finally let your walls down. Gavin just smiles to himself for a moment. When he notices Hank's fallen asleep he lifts his head up and gently presses a soft little smooch to his cheekbone. Rest up, hubby.

He lays his head back down and looks over at Eli, gray eyes wide and curious. ]

I saw a lot in my dreams, y'know. Can I ask you something?

[yourmaker]

[ This is why he doesn't let his walls down around anyone (except Chloe,) no one must know he's secretly soft!! Hank smiles in his sleep and snuffles. Eli's half-dozing, but he's awake enough to stir and turn his head.

It's no surprise he saw something -- Elijah saw things too. ]

Sure. What did you see?

[coffeedipshit]

[ You can't hide your softness from your pack, bro! It's futile!

Gavin hums and looks at him. No point in beating around the bush anymore, when you can literally get inside your twin's head. ]

Were you... in love with Amanda?

[yourmaker]

[ Evidently, this pack thing has its disadvantages. ]

Was I... what?

[ That's...... that questions gives him some mixed reactions, obviously. On one hand, she's dead. On the other, she's... well. ]

She was my mentor. [ But also Ezra can probably feel all the conflict there. And the embarrassment. ] She inspired me. And I may have had a... a crush, maybe but. Love is... no, that's not. That's not the word I would use.

[coffeedipshit]

[ Wow, he really didn't expect this reaction. He wasn't asking him to embarrass him, for once. He definitely feels all of his confusion too, that awkward twist of something in his chest. ]

Hey, hey, it's fine. I'm not judging you. [ He reaches over to put a hand on his upper arm, soothing him. ] I just... dreamed about her a lot. Felt all— [ He puts a hand on his chest. ] —about her.

[ He doesn't say 'it's how I felt about Hank at first' but, well. It was. ]

It's... okay if you were, y'know.

[yourmaker]

[ Well, at least Ezra's support is nice. He can believe isn't judging him.

At least if he also felt it, maybe Elijah doesn't have to put his feelings into words so much. You'd think a genius like him would have a little more control, but he's being honest and that's... honestly very hard for him. Ezra understands. ]

I just... It was completely one-sided. I wanted to impress her. And she was so vital to me.

[ He closes his eyes, taking a breath. It's hard for him -- he knows Gavin got his wish with Hank but Elijah was never going to actually attempt to be in a relationship with Amanda. ]

I don't think I realized until she was gone.

[coffeedipshit]

[ He doesn't have to say anything, Gavin getting the waves of his feelings... it hurts a little. It hurts to know it was an entirely unrequited love. He doesn't doubt Amanda cared for him, but it was more like a son...

It hurts in a way something hurts when you don't look after it properly. ]

I'm sorry, Eli. [ He leans over Hank and pulls him into a one armed hug. ] I wouldn't have asked if I'd known.

[yourmaker]

Don't worry. She was too good for me.

[ Elijah forces a smile, leaning into the hug. It's an old wound, but it'll always be there. Amanda was his everything, and then she was gone. He had to move on... or you know, base an AI on her. ]

[coffeedipshit]

She was.

[ He sort of gently pinches his cheek, an annoying little brother thing to distract him. ]

We both kinda got... lost in grief for a while there, didn't we?

[yourmaker]

We certainly did.

[ Elijah smirks, slapping his hand away and reaching over to mess with Gavin's hair. ]

I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I should have reached out.

[coffeedipshit]

[ Gavin snickers. He really needs to shave his undercut and his hair has been getting long... they're starting to look more alike than usual. ]

It's okay. I mean, I didn't try very hard either. I was so determined to be alone and angry to prove a point

[yourmaker]

[ Much as Eli's the type to dwell, he'll try to relax. Ezra's a lot better at letting go than he is. But then he's officially changed his name back and he's soft and married and happy so now Elijah gets to be the problem child, huh?

Yeah, ok, he's gonna dwell. ]

I certainly didn't help.

[coffeedipshit]

[ Time for you to deal with your own shit shit, Eli!! That's what you get being in a pack with them. Gonna be all emotionally healthy and shit whether you like it or not. It's hard to not work through things when you've literally got other people in your head. ]

Eli, we're almost forty. It's pointless to assign blame to a lot of shit we did when we were young, immature and still under the thumb of our folks own bullshit. We both fucked up but we're fixing it. [ He reaches over and pokes between his eyes. ] You may be a vampire but you're gonna get wrinkles between your eyes if you keep looking like that.

[yourmaker]

[ Elijah scoffs. He knows Ezra's right. It really is hard to hide things when your brother is in your head. ]

I don't have wrinkles, you know I take moisturizing very seriously.

[coffeedipshit]

Just don't start going full Elizabeth Báthory and you can take your moisturizing as seriously as you want.

[ Flashbacks to all the times he'd find younger Eli laying in bed with a face mask on, scaring the absolute shit out of him. ]

Now, are there any potentially embarrassing questions you wanna ask me? Y'know, to make it even.

[yourmaker]

[ Eli makes a face. Maybe his opinion will change one day, but for now -- blood is pretty gross. ]

You know I'm too squeamish to do that.

[ But he does take his appearance more seriously than most people so don't be surprised if he starts wearing foundation help with that dead pallor to his skin. ]

Well, since you're giving me the floor, I may as well. Would you and Hank ever consider a threesome?

[ He's full of shit, he's just going for the most embarrassing thing he can think of. ]

[coffeedipshit]

[ Eye roll. ] You're the first squeamish vampire, you weenie.

[ And then... Gavin turns bright red and tosses a pillow right at his face. ]

Oh fuck off! No! [ He's even more insistent because the instincts and pack dynamics are all fucky right now and the voice in his head is like "Sure because that's me!" and that's? No!! Ew!!

(Also that dream one of them had to have... no... ) ]

[yourmaker]

I'm the first of a lot of things.

[ He laughs though. He can feel that pull too, part of him was just wanting to know if Ezra was feeling it too. He should have guessed.

Also Hank grumbles something but manages to stay asleep. I guess he can tell they're both happy even if they're being stupid. ]

Fine, I rescind my question. How about... [ He pauses, tossing the pillow back to Gavin. ] Was it always so... easy for you? Being a werewolf. It seems like having Hank around really helped. You adjusted quickly. Or am I wrong?

[coffeedipshit]

[ It's a very insistent and intoxicating pull that he is stalwartly ignoring. He catches the pillow and curls up next to his husband again, snuffling close.

He hums a little at the genuine question. ]

No, it wasn't. Hank didn't really know anything either so we were both figuring it out. I was... [ He trails off. ] Scared of hurting people a lot. But we've got a handle on it now, I'd say.

[yourmaker]

[ Yeah, Elijah can get that. Considering he can kinda 'turn on' his sensors that let him smell and feel and sense blood, it's... a little scary. Just a little. ]

What did you do? When you were scared, I mean.

[ Not that it would ever happen to him. ]

[coffeedipshit]

Just... went to Hank, when I could. Werewolf thing, being around the alpha. Gives you a better sense of control.

[ He looks up at Eli again. ] I'm sure Babcia will be able to tell you things you need to know... but if you get scared or anything, just come to me. Maybe we can just fight it out til you feel more in control.

[yourmaker]

I see.

[ 'Vampires who kill their sire's tend to go berserk,' he can kind of understand that. Almost. He can see how it could happen. ]

So if I call you and tell you I'm worried I could hurt someone, you would 'fight it out' of me?

[coffeedipshit]

[ It's probably because they have no direction along with being born starving. The ultimate hangry. ]

Yeah. Like when we were kids, but without the pillow fight.

[ He's quiet for a beat. ]

What... is it like? What are your senses like now, if you can tell?

[yourmaker]

[ Born hangry: the most dangerous of all vampires. ]

I'll let you know.

[ He really might. He doesn't know his own strength yet, that's the only safe way. ]

It's... overwhelming. I've managed to get used to it. Or maybe tone it down. But I can hear your heart. And your pulse. And... well, I could see your blood under your skin, last night.

[coffeedipshit]

[ The only thing that could kill Gavin at this point is his spine being ripped clean in two, so. He's the ideal punching bag while you get yourself figured out, bro.

And that's... not really surprising, he supposes. ]

Yeah, I kinda relate. My hearing is pretty intense now. [ He flicks at his ear lobe. ] I can hear your heartbeat too, it's been faster since you fed on me. It was... really slow last night.