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Precisely.

[ Better to make things yourself than follow what others thought was right. Please, you can't create sentient life without the right attitude. ]

You've never been a good liar, Ezra.

[ That makes one of them. He'd definitely have blabbed if he'd seen anything juicy. ]

It crossed my mind, you know. [ He was thinking about it constantly in other words. ] Werewolves only have life expectancy because of pack in-fighting. There's nothing really stopping you from living a thousand years.

Yeah, unlike somebody.

[ He squeezes Eli's hand again. Gavin knows the way he talks now, of course, can always read between the lines of the things he says. ]

Yeah. It'd suck to live a thousand years without your smarmy face around. [ It's probably... not entirely healthy that neither of them can fathom existence without the other. But well, they're a werewolf and vampire wombo combo now. Not exactly typical human experience anymore.

Babcia had said some same soul twins go insane with codependency. At least they aren't doing... that. It could be worse. A lot worse. ("Don't look into your great-great-great-great-great aunt and uncle, boys. We disowned them for a reason." Yikes.) ]

[ He smiles. Yeah, he knows that wasn't a compliment. And yet he's still sitting on the edge of their bed so, you know. If you're trying to get rid of him you'll have to try harder than that. ]

Oh? Did I finally get you to admit you'd miss me?

[ Yeah, no, they both know it's not just about that. But it's a matter of a soul not being able to exist when it's incomplete. The two of them may not be matching parts anymore, but with their differences, they still fit together just as well.

Maybe it's almost a good thing their parents forced them to be so competitive as children. At least it gave them room to be their own people. (Of course only Eli would think this... he's got favorite child privilege.) ]

[ Oh he could say far worse if he wanted to get you to leave. Ezra's always here to bust your chops, Eli.

He huffs and dramatically rolls his eyes, throwing a hand up. ]

I guess. It's like I love you or something, you obnoxious pain in the ass. [ And then he grins and reaches over, tugging Eli along so they're both flopping on Hank. Sorry husband, it's time for a proper pack cuddle pile. Try not to melt, Eli.

It worked out for the best. He won't give their parents any credit for it, since he doubts it was at all intentional, but well. At least they know where each other begins and ends. ]

[ Gosh, it's almost like they're brothers or something.

Perish the thought. [ He's blushing. Wow. He blames your blood, Ezra. ] I love you too, you brainless dog.

[ Oh but he says that with a smile and soon enough he's being pulled back onto Hank and that's nice, it's so good and calming to be surrounded by his brother and his mate and his alpha. This is definitely all Ezra's blood's fault. He closes his eyes and sighs. Maybe he's a little more Ezra than usual but that's not such a bad thing. Their parents may have fucked them up, but they picked up the pieces pretty well.

Hank just shakes his head and doesn't say anything. He can tell they probably need the cuddles. Sometimes an alpha's job is to cuddle his pack, apparently. ]

[ Eli you're so cute when you blush. Gavin snickers. ]

Dog, yes. Brainless, hardly.

[ It's nice to be able to feel his brother relax though. When was the last time he well and truly relaxed? They both curl up on either side of Hank, Gavin nuzzling close. He purrs a little, a full chested vibration, so very happy. ]

Mine. Both mine.

[ Elijah snuggles closer, letting himself relax and enjoy this. If Ezra is alright with it -- if Ezra is starting it, then it must be alright, right? Hank lets it happen too. He pulls them both closer, feeling them both relax. They both feel like his mate as far as his instincts are concerned, but he can kinda jive with it when they're all tucked together like this.

Maybe Hank can relax too. Or maybe Eli can be a little shit. ]

Oh my god, you can purr.

You lose cuddling privileges for being a smartass, brother. [ Gavin says it, sightly muffled against Hank's skin. Let him purr!! He's very happy!! ] You should give it a try before you knock it.

I'll shut up.

[ He responds, snotty but quick. He wants cuddles, dammit! Don't make him say it out loud. Hank just laughs, swatting Eli on the back. He's relaxed, ok. ]

Please, purr to your heart's content.

[ He doesn't know how to purr... ]

Damn right I will.

[ And he does so, though it's a little softer. C'mon bro, you're part of him, in his head, you can figure it out.

Oh, he remembers what he dreamed about... hm. He has some things to ask him when they're alone. ]

[ He'll figure it out, he just needs a minute to stop thinking so hard. It's pretty difficult when you're Elijah Kamski, but after enough time, he manages it. He's purring. Very slightly. It's quiet and rumbly and Hank may have actually fallen back to sleep because he has two purring brothers on him.

Goodnight, feel free to talk. Eli's actually not sure he's felt this happy in a while? Which is weird since he's a vampire now but y'know. ]

[ Oh no, that's so cute. You're so cute bro, when you finally let your walls down. Gavin just smiles to himself for a moment. When he notices Hank's fallen asleep he lifts his head up and gently presses a soft little smooch to his cheekbone. Rest up, hubby.

He lays his head back down and looks over at Eli, gray eyes wide and curious. ]

I saw a lot in my dreams, y'know. Can I ask you something?

[ This is why he doesn't let his walls down around anyone (except Chloe,) no one must know he's secretly soft!! Hank smiles in his sleep and snuffles. Eli's half-dozing, but he's awake enough to stir and turn his head.

It's no surprise he saw something -- Elijah saw things too. ]

Sure. What did you see?

[ You can't hide your softness from your pack, bro! It's futile!

Gavin hums and looks at him. No point in beating around the bush anymore, when you can literally get inside your twin's head. ]

Were you... in love with Amanda?

[ Evidently, this pack thing has its disadvantages. ]

Was I... what?

[ That's...... that questions gives him some mixed reactions, obviously. On one hand, she's dead. On the other, she's... well. ]

She was my mentor. [ But also Ezra can probably feel all the conflict there. And the embarrassment. ] She inspired me. And I may have had a... a crush, maybe but. Love is... no, that's not. That's not the word I would use.

[ Wow, he really didn't expect this reaction. He wasn't asking him to embarrass him, for once. He definitely feels all of his confusion too, that awkward twist of something in his chest. ]

Hey, hey, it's fine. I'm not judging you. [ He reaches over to put a hand on his upper arm, soothing him. ] I just... dreamed about her a lot. Felt all— [ He puts a hand on his chest. ] —about her.

[ He doesn't say 'it's how I felt about Hank at first' but, well. It was. ]

It's... okay if you were, y'know.

[ Well, at least Ezra's support is nice. He can believe isn't judging him.

At least if he also felt it, maybe Elijah doesn't have to put his feelings into words so much. You'd think a genius like him would have a little more control, but he's being honest and that's... honestly very hard for him. Ezra understands. ]

I just... It was completely one-sided. I wanted to impress her. And she was so vital to me.

[ He closes his eyes, taking a breath. It's hard for him -- he knows Gavin got his wish with Hank but Elijah was never going to actually attempt to be in a relationship with Amanda. ]

I don't think I realized until she was gone.

[ He doesn't have to say anything, Gavin getting the waves of his feelings... it hurts a little. It hurts to know it was an entirely unrequited love. He doesn't doubt Amanda cared for him, but it was more like a son...

It hurts in a way something hurts when you don't look after it properly. ]

I'm sorry, Eli. [ He leans over Hank and pulls him into a one armed hug. ] I wouldn't have asked if I'd known.

Don't worry. She was too good for me.

[ Elijah forces a smile, leaning into the hug. It's an old wound, but it'll always be there. Amanda was his everything, and then she was gone. He had to move on... or you know, base an AI on her. ]

She was.

[ He sort of gently pinches his cheek, an annoying little brother thing to distract him. ]

We both kinda got... lost in grief for a while there, didn't we?

We certainly did.

[ Elijah smirks, slapping his hand away and reaching over to mess with Gavin's hair. ]

I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I should have reached out.

[ Gavin snickers. He really needs to shave his undercut and his hair has been getting long... they're starting to look more alike than usual. ]

It's okay. I mean, I didn't try very hard either. I was so determined to be alone and angry to prove a point

[ Much as Eli's the type to dwell, he'll try to relax. Ezra's a lot better at letting go than he is. But then he's officially changed his name back and he's soft and married and happy so now Elijah gets to be the problem child, huh?

Yeah, ok, he's gonna dwell. ]

I certainly didn't help.

[ Time for you to deal with your own shit shit, Eli!! That's what you get being in a pack with them. Gonna be all emotionally healthy and shit whether you like it or not. It's hard to not work through things when you've literally got other people in your head. ]

Eli, we're almost forty. It's pointless to assign blame to a lot of shit we did when we were young, immature and still under the thumb of our folks own bullshit. We both fucked up but we're fixing it. [ He reaches over and pokes between his eyes. ] You may be a vampire but you're gonna get wrinkles between your eyes if you keep looking like that.

[ Elijah scoffs. He knows Ezra's right. It really is hard to hide things when your brother is in your head. ]

I don't have wrinkles, you know I take moisturizing very seriously.

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