[ Well, this is what he wanted. Stop hiding from it, Eli, let it all out. He doesn't flinch, just shrugging. ]

Honestly? Yes. [ He meets his eyes, unblinking. ] This shit is a part of you now and you have to accept it. I'm sorry you don't have anyone to guide you like I did, but you can't hide from yourself.

[ He tilts his head a little. ] You can't be a coward and let it control you.