[ The response to that is instantaneous. ]

How the hell else am I supposed to!?

[ Woah, hey. No need to yell, Eli. Except he is. And he's standing now. (It's ok, the tablet is break-proof.) ]

Am I supposed to wait until I lose control and hurt someone? Or am I supposed to purposely let this thing out of me? This desire, this need -- I don't want anything to do with it!