[ Ezra hides his smile in Eli's back, squeezing him again. His fingers find folds in his sweater, holding it gently, much in the way he would when they were little boys and Ezra would toddle behind him so they wouldn't get lost. ]

When I felt you turn... I thought I was too late. [ He presses closer. ] It was the worst thing I've ever felt in my life, those few seconds I thought you were dead.

[ Just remembering how much his heart hurt probably makes its way to Eli. His blood remembers the pain. ]