[ It's a very insistent and intoxicating pull that he is stalwartly ignoring. He catches the pillow and curls up next to his husband again, snuffling close.

He hums a little at the genuine question. ]

No, it wasn't. Hank didn't really know anything either so we were both figuring it out. I was... [ He trails off. ] Scared of hurting people a lot. But we've got a handle on it now, I'd say.